your image had grown so pasty
that night
yes, i remember that night
i learned about the loss of innocence
of control
the loss of myself
and i let you touch me
and talk to me
hold me like you cared
i even remember how we danced
my silver anklet lost in the grass
your lips on my mouth
searching me so intently
i remember saying no
but i was too weak
to push you away
so i blamed myself
i stayed with you for months
how i died inside
but i did
i did get over you
and was able to despise you
maybe even feel sorry for you
and when i saw you today
i cried
for everything about me
that you manipulated and mangled
and i cried
because that died today
finally, finally
Melfuntioning Memories 