*Peel

i lay there
no clothes on
yet i am not naked
so much is still covered
kept a deep dark secret
from everyone
even myself
i wish i had a razor
not to slice my wrists
but to cut a neat line
from my ear down my arm
past my legs
all the way around
so i can neatly just peel
my skin off
and step outside of myself
will that be enough
what about my muscles
my stomach
do i even need to go outside
my heart
to feel naked
i can’t physically do it
yet i want to rip and tear
my frustrations twist
in front of my eyes
maybe i will take my pen
and stab these out too
before i go crazy some more
i think i should put my clothes
back on
the more layers i have
the further away i will be
from self destruction

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